GIVE THE DAY A BIG SMILE!!!

tired tired tired

I am so tired, real tired.

Sometimes, I think that the improvements I made are so slow, slow and slow. At times, I feel that I am not making any improvement at all, and it gets depressing after sometime. It is just like doing a lot of things and not getting anything back at all and it doesn’t help at all if your teacher is totally results driven.

My math teacher seems to be very results driven. Every time I am happy that I have at least made a bit of improvement, he will actually say something to dampen my spirit. For the last few weeks, I have being reaching home late due to my involvement in my CCA. I would always reach home after 8 pm, on most of the days, I would only reach home at about 10pm, it leaves me with very little time to complete something so most of the time I would do my math homework during class or breaks. I would of course be slower in my work but at least I try and make a point to be doing slightly ahead of what he is teaching, but he would always say something like, besides doing your work you also have to take note of how long you spend on a question, with that dreadful sarcasm in his voice! And sometimes he would even skip the whole lesson without asking the class. I get so frustrated. Now days, I totally give up on listening in his class, as the solutions he gives are either full of errors or are Greek to everyone else in the classroom. I am also note that the number of questions raised in class are getting lesser and lesser, because no one understand his explanations, and every time I ask him a question for reconfirmations, he will like, you are so dead how could you not know this, go and ask your friends I do not think I need to answer this. Now, I totally heck him, and not ask anymore questions, let him solidify into a rock for all I care, I am just going to ask my friends.

This week would not be as hectic as the last, but next week the coming home routine would start again. But this would be over soon. After May, we would step down and hand over to the new batch. This year batch seems okay and better than last year, but I am afraid they are too clique-ish and in the long run it might affect their performance. Furthermore it is too big a group this year, although the year one feel that there is too little people but after they start out they will realized there are actually too many people and there will sure be people who will be the sleeping members, I can even pick out a few now. Sooner or later, I can predict there will be some sort of conflict, I just hope they are able to get around it some how.

Next thing that is bogging me down would be that some people in AVA are just getting on my nerves by relentlessly teasing me or trying to fish out information. They are irritating me, at this moment now, they are so many orange windows flashing and out of the five windows, two are the irritating freaks that keep asking me or at least take every single opportunities and every word I say to link to him! My only solution, ignore them to the end!
Haizz, I am tired.

posted by maevbe @ 7:45 PM