Get a life!!!
I am back again with stories of the shit face in my school. I just can't stand him!! He is so action. Who do you think you are?? Huh?? Let me tell you are NOTHING!! WAHAHAHA!! Get a life!!
some people think too highly of themselves, just because you get a position doesn't mean that you can be a snob and and think that you are almighty!! If you are really almighty then do everything by yourself. One more thing, don't get jealous when other guys are more popular then you because you will be jealous for the rest of your life!!! You know why, because with your personality no girls would EVER like you!! Seriously you need to get a life. A position and authority is not all in life, if your main motive of getting into exco is just so that you can order everyone around then your life is a sad case. Moreover you are only a treasurer, the way you think that you are superior makes me want to laugh. Tell you, the most you can be is only a treasurer and you would never be a president no matter how much you perceived yourself as one!!! sooo you seriously needs to consider getting a life!!
a real leader would lead and listen to it surbodinate. A real leader would not flaunt how superior he is and instead works and lead at the same level with his workers. That is a leader.
i hate toothache
there are alot of reasons i can give for hating toothache :
1' it deprived me of my favourite hobby.. EATING
2' it gives me a big big headache
3' i can;t roll my tongue
4' i cannot sleep on the side which i have a toothache
5' i have a bad phobia of visiting the dentist
6' i do not want to pluck out my wisdom tooth ( i mean i does give me some wisdom, doesn't it?)
however! there is one good cause for having a toothache
I DO NOT NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL!! YEAH!!
it is not that i hate to go to school but you know taking a break would be good once in a while, it relax and purify one's mind. after all being exposed to too much pollution in school, taking a break would be a luxury.
i am now enjoying my time at home, sipping some milk ( not coffee) sitting in front of the computer typing out my thoughts and doing reflection for my life. after this i am going into the room, put on some music and flop on my bed with my newly brought story book sophie's world. what a bliss. that is what i call the enjoyment of life.
i like to go out with my friend however i still think that it is important to have quality time to myself. that would be a time that you would be really relaxed and be true to yourself. don;t believe? just try it. take up a book or magazine and sit on your bed with your favourite music and you would feel that you are in wonderland.
i think that haveing time to ourselves is absolutely important. it allows us to relfect on what is happening around us and what is happening to our lifes. it is also a break from the fast paced life that we are having. everyone needs a break now and then. in fact having a break should not be considered as a luxury but a necessity, however in this fast paced life that we are having now, a break has been transformed into a luxury which is quite a sad case.
well, i am now going to enjoy my luxury..
quite
Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.
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everything needs money..
it WEEKEND again!! days when i spend my time lazing around or running about singapore..hee hee. this means that there would be not revision carried out.. and i wonder how could i fail my common test.. this explains it.
reflection for the week1" never ever say out your handphone number on the bus!!
i met my primary school friend on the bus a few days back on the bus. haha. so naturally we would want to keep in contact, hence i told her my handphone number when she asked for it, in the bus. i mean i said it out and that got me into alot, ALOT I mean it, of trouble. this unknown guy started to call me claiming that he was my boyfriend. what a phycho!! i totally freak out.. he keeps calling until i had no choice but to switch off my handphone. it is so creepy. finally i had enough and i have a very nice friend with me when he called again thus, my ever so wonderful friend told him off and threaten to call the police. i think that he got scared and never called again!! yeah!!
morale of the story? never say out your handphone no. in the bus
.2" go ahead with the usual plans even if a person backs out
well as usual, some ever so self centred guy decides to back out at the last moment again and wants us to go out some other days just because he can't make it. this is the second time in the 2 weeks, and plus alot of other countless time. don't you ever think that i would be at your beck and call you jerk!! hence my friend and i decided to go ahead as planned. we watched the fantastic four. the movie quite disapointing though but had an enjoyable time over all. o ya.. i brought a green jacket, but my mother commented that it is VERY VERY ugly, hence i went all teh way back to the place to change to grey.
3" well don;t go shopping alone?
when i went to change the jacket today (alone) i did somemore shopping and brought two t- shirts!! yeah!!
an summary of what i brought yesterday and today:
jacket - $ 35
shoes - $89.90
shirts - $ 29.4
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total - $154.30
and now i am utterly and offially broke.
donations anyone?
4" start studying like now!!
so that all folks!! haha
Am I? Or am I not?
Wow. Suddenly realized that live isn't as simple as I thought it would be. Sometimes I would not have very strong feelings about things because I think that it is too troublesome. I think that as long as I can get along with everyone or maybe not I just like to be myself sometimes. I guess this would irritate some people, how I know?
I think that this girl in my class thinks that I am a hypocrite, I do not know why. I think it is because I am always smiling or joking around? Whatever, I can't please everyone can I? neh I can't so take it or leave it.
school life now is so competitive and 'real'. Tons of back stabbing and the need to get more and more authority. What the.. don;t they know the saying " great powers comes with great responsibility". I think that they do not have any other things to do aside from school stuff thus they are so intent on being a exco member and bitching about each other behind each other backs, what a sad case. Please sort out your problems and get a life!!
a point to note... I like who I am and whatever you say or think it would not hurt me!! Not even a scratch so save it! There are people out there who still like me for who I am
Tong hua
Ha.. If any guy sings this to me I would love him so much!! Any takers?? haha wishful thinking..
Those were the days..
Today I went to Victoria theater to watched the band concert. When I was still in secondary school, I would have avoided these kind of events like a plague but now, I actually look forward to it.
the experience in the theater was quite out of the norm. Ha. We felt quite old standing in the hall, after all we are surrounded by secondary students. Well, I must really say our secondary school student has really found a new way to ' cheer' for their schoolmates and to enjoy their experience in the theater by making sure they feed themselves well.
well recently I am surprisingly quite supportive of my secondary school events which I would have absolutely detested in the past. I guess it is the same old phase, ' you never know what you have lost until it is gone.' I missed those times when we have to dress up for racial harmony day, the days when the teachers put up performance to make us laugh, lessons that we have debating over issues and affairs, even the counseling in the morning. There are so much things that I missed. The teachers, I think that they are the best I could ever had. I think no matter how old I get I would still squirm like a secondary one student afraid the they would scold me anytime and grin widely for the rest of the day when I they praise me or give me a pat on my back. They mean something in my life to make me feel this way.
things are so much different in junior college. Teachers seem distant and out of reach. Rushing to lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorial wondering when will the day end so that I can go to some where I feel comfortable in, hoping to leave the school compound as soon as possible. I would every morning with the dreading feeling that I have to go to school. I have never felt this way when I was in secondary school. I look forward to each day to see my friends in school and look forward to lessons when we could have fun while learning.
I guess those days can only exist in my fondest memories, I have to move on in life and grow up to face that world...
feeling down
i think i am in the down mood again. i have just got back my general paper today, and the results is... i do not know what to do anymore, i feel that i am at my wits end. today when my friend got back her results, she cried. i fared worse then her, i felt very numb than, although i expected bad results. my friend asked me why didn't i cry and still seemed so happy, seriously i do not know and i just kept on smiling, i did not knoe what else to do except to smile.
sometimes i feel that it is very difficult for me to express my feelings openly. i could not show my friends anything else aside from my ' happy side'. this group of friends i have in junior college feels so.. superfacial. i just felt that i couldn't afford to share these things with them. they are different from those i had in secondary school and even at my workplace. those people seems more.. real. i just got the feeling that they would not turn their back on you and that we can really just lean on each other without worries.
however when i am with this group of friend in junior college, i just got this gut feeling that we are together for the sake of being together. it is just like not one wants to be alone thus we stick together, there is not strong feelings stuck. it just feels like we are using each other. the feeling of using each other is just so wrong.
treating each other with great dignity, respect and trust is the most important thing that a person we must nevef forget. when we treat a person these, we would too recieve it back, by then you would feel that it is the happiest thing that could ever happen. the bond between this two person would be unbelieveable and ever lasting. if you have treat the person with dignity, respect adn trust but you did not reieve the same thing back in return don't be discouraged, just feel pity for these people because they all lossing out in a big part of their lives.if they ever come to their sense it would be good and they would find themselves however if they contiues their lives the way it is, they woudl find themselves a very lonely person in future.
i would never want to forget this most important factor in a person's life. much as i do not want to loss it, i have unknowingly dropped some on my course of life and i hope i would find it back because it is as importatn as life itself. i hope soon i would be able to go back to my old days when i cry as i want, smile out with pure happiness and have fun with the people around me.. till then..
Amazement
Have you ever really thought of have must have we changed over the years, since the time we were so vulnerable to the world till the times we are learning to protect ourselves and the times we would protect others. It seem so wonderful.
our family protects us and gives us a place to go in times of needs. We walk with our friends to gain the sercurity and comfort and the someone that is so meaningful a person lives that you wish you can stay with that person forever.
I remember reading in a book, everytime someone dies they hand they world to a new born. Hence from the moment we are born we are all handed with a present and this is a present we must all cherish. Every present handed to anyone has a meaning behind it, and the present of life is to hope that we would make it a wonderful one and pass it on. This is what I think.
I think that a person greatest and most wonderful achievement in life is to have a person whom you hold so closely to in your life that you would never ever one to leave them. I hope I would find this person one day, just like how my parents have found each other. This way, we was be able to uphold the reason why are we on earth and pass the happiness on.
I feel so crappy but I think that the love between people can so so wonderful sometimes, it not only bring happiness to the people themselves but also spread happiness to those around them.
in case you think I am lovestruck.. So sorry I not but how I wish I could.. Believe in it.
wonders all around
i do not know why, but i suddenly felt that the world is filled with wonders and surprises. i do not know how to described the feelings..
shoudl blog more tomorrow when i am not so tired..
It is starting to get annoying
Now there is something I really don't like about girls ( although I am a girl myself) is that at some point of time they would make they voice sounds so meeky, act cute, and pretend to be.. Meek.
i am sorry but i cannot and will not stand this kind of girls. i mean, they make girl look bad!! they will do in their cute cute tone " i am soo cold (rub rub their arms) do you have any jacket?" that is soo soo act, they room is like 25 degree and outside? 33 degree who on earth would be cold?? this behaviour sends a shiver down my sphine.
i would never ever do this, even if you want attention of a certain guy, show your personality, it is the new generation man, most guys go for your personality not how submissive you are, if a guy wants you to be submissive? ditch him!!
Measures to counter depression..
lets not dwell any longer on what is my result is..Because it makes me depress and makes anyone else aside from my teachers and parents happy.instead, with my super quick recovery personality, I have came up with measures to counter the depression bug!! haha and it was carried out on the very afternoon. I would just share some of my wonderful secrets here..1.. Call someone and complain about how bad that paper was 2.. Eat!!3.. Retail therapythis three is a must!!!but sadly I forgot the bring my handphone on that day, but luckily I manage to get hold of a handphone!!complained to benja. He is soo not sympatheic..But hope we can get to go out soon with the rest but I can continue my sad and soulful story.
eat!! Went for sushi.. Wanted to have ice cream but my stomach could not take it anymore..
wanted to shop for some clothes, but this is the sale period,..Everywhere is so crowded so I spent my money in books..
wanted to get the initial d photobook but the paper quality was not so good.. Maybe I will get it other time. I brought Sophia's world and a Chinese book by ji mi. i have also purchased Lin jun jie CD. Wanted to get more things but money limited.. Anyway I was satisfied.
the first thing I am going to do after my exams and education.. I am leaving Singapore and going traveling for a long long time!! I really really need to let my soul have a break. Hence I have started saving up now. I am going to try as much as possible to bring food from home and hopefully I would be able to save enough to go on a backpack trip to hongkong and Australia.
restless and tire days.. How long would this drag on..
wow.. nice results
got back two of my common test results today. it was the nicest results i have gotten since years.. nicest i say, not the best. understood?
in case you want to know how much i got.. look below..
maths c -
23.5/65chinese a -
41/90how nice.. i can go jump off the bulding now.. haha.. lets see how nice is the results tomorrow.. stay tune
I am so careless
Shit!! I lost my e-zi link card!! Now I have to use coins to take bus, so unlucky!!
I am still brooding on the topic I am going to fail my test!! How!! nono must have faith,, have faith have faith.. hypnotising myself. Ha
can I be a little soapy? haha, I still thinking of him. Yup, him. So sad right?
I am going for retail therapy on Friday!! Yeah!! Needed it man. Can't wait for Friday to come. How I wished I can skip Chinese class on Friday, but sadly I can't because they are teaching ' gu wen' a form of very difficult to understand ancient Chinese language -_-..
today we had ava meeting. It is damn boring. We were suppose to think of a treatment for the upcoming sva competition. And that alone took us more then one hour. Such a long and tedious process.
I really missed the old times when everything is so simple and happy. I have also missed the times during the short period of time that I have known you.although the time we spent together were short but I am still glad to have know you.
can i skip this?
well until now i had not had my priorities set out yet, if i did i would not be blogging anyway. had a very fun and excitiong day at school today but i do not think that i am going to enjoy the remaining days. why you would ask.. it is becuse i am getting my dumb results back. this is soo soo tramatising. i am going to freak out soon.
when an ambulence sped past the school today, i really though it was coming for me. i hope one speed past tomorrow, i really really need it, i would not ever ever want to die in school. okay i know that sounds quite extreme but we must think if the worse secnerio right? yup. there is something i am so thankful for right now, it is that junior college test papers do not have the parents' signature line on it. phew..
i feel so sleepy, i tired to listen to every lecture and understand what the lecturer was blabbering about, unfortunatly i only manage to keep to that resolution for like 15 min before i start spacing out again. talk about determination...
too tired to go on..
Message: A group of professional people posed this questionto a groupof 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone couldhave imagined.See what you think:
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn'tbend overand paint her toenails anymore. So mygrandfather does it for herall the time, even when his hands got arthritis too.That's love."Rebecca- age 8
When someone loves you, the way they say your name isdifferent. You just know that your name is safe intheir mouth."Billy - age 4
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell eachother."Karl - age 5
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."Chrissy -age 6
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."Terri - age 4
"Love is when my mom my makes coffee for mydaddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."Danny - age 7
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"Emily - age 8
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."Bobby - age 7
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka'son this planet)
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."Noelle - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old manwho are still friends even after they know each other sowell."Tommy - age 6
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared.I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving andsmiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared any more."Cindy - age 8
"My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."Clare - age 6
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."Elaine-age 5
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."Chris - age 7
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."Lauren - age 4
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down andlittle stars come out of you."Karen - age 7
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless youmean it.But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."Jessica - age 8
And the final one -- Author and lecturer LeoBuscaglia oncetalked about a contest he was asked to judge.The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbour was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and justsat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"
When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is all you need.
Take 60 seconds and give this a shot!All you do is simply say the following small prayerfor the person who sent you this.
Father, God bless all my friends in whatever it is that You know they may be needing this day! And may their life be full ofyour peace, prosperity and power as he/she seeks to have a closer relationship with you. Amen.
changing fast
i wanted to change my blog skin, and i really did changed it!! but only for like a few hours and i decided to change back because the font was too small. it okay green is good for eyes so you can look at my blog for a little longer. hee
until i know how to create a blog skin i really really like, i would just keep to this skin.
Sad shows
I realized I have watched too many sad movies recently and now I am a sad sad person.
just finished watching AI on television. Human cruelty. Seems that most of the shows I watched revolves around that. Sometimes when you just want to be happy and a nice person, there are just these movie to tell you that being a person is bad. Yeah I know I am a flawed person. Haiku this sounds depressing.
I think I would take sometime to get back into the happy mood again. I have being a very good girl this week. I have not gone out since my test after Thursday. This is soo sad. I think for a student at our age, to maintain a friendship it is important to be in the same school since everything about a student is school.
I really wished to believe that our friendship would remain as strong as it used to be. But it turned out that I think because we hold this belief so strongly that we have taken it for granted.
I feel so tired, trying to keep it up, making sure that I have time for them, making sure that this continues, however it is still impossible. Sometimes I really feels that all these effort are redundant.
I am not sure is it because I am thinking too much, but I felt truly hurt when they said " all the things in the past should be put behind"
although it was said in a joking manner but I really felt like crying, because before they started school but when I was still schooling they would pester me to go out, hump.. My mind is in a mess now, I am not thinking logically. I should seriously be considering my priorities and sort out on my own these matters.
stalking off to ponder. Advises?
soo wonderful
I watched infernal affairs again today. I am so in love with the show now, might consider running off to buy the DVD.
~ being a women is very simple, as love as the man is good to me I am willing to do anything for him~
this was quoted by the lady in the show and her love for her husband is undeniable
~ I want to be a good man~
the contradiction in this story? They end up doing bad things
~ I am a policeman~
I do what I need to do regardless of your relations to me
~ what goes around will come around~
that the main phrase.
it is a world of grey,,,
