Infernal affairs
I can now truly understand why this movie has being the blockblaster for all three sequel. It is truly a good and insightful movie.
the script writer has wonderfully linked the lives of the people in the story. Even people from two extreme end seems to fit into each other lives so perfectly.
one's persistence in becoming a policeman trying to break away from what lives put him in, and the other giving up whatever he have and can gain in life for something he believes s more important than anything else, a woman he loves so dearly.
these has indirectly shown the cruel reality of lives. From the moment we are born, part of our path has already being laid for us. The background of the family, no matter how much we deny it, how much we fight against it, it will always be there and people in the past or now no matter how much the society has changed, this stigma is still around. The police- wannabe, the best police cadet in the police school was forced to leave after the fact that he is from a family of gangster. All is hardworking and achievements was reduced to null because of his background.
the persistence and the love for a person, so great that one can even change their lives motives. A man who only wishes to be a good man turn to being a gangster for the woman he loves but could not get. A man betrayal to all the beliefs he had hold to his heart for the woman he loves, the so great that eventually he lead her to her death as he was blinded by jealously. This show the folly of a man when he faces love and the greatness of love that could change someone so much. From here we can also see that not everything will go our way even though we try hard.
everyone's' roles is ambiguous in the show. The good is to entirely good while the bad is not all bad. No black or white but only a region of gray.
what I felt that make this show so great is in spite all the cruel reality posed in the show, each character in the story have someone that hold dear to. Some one that motivates the in their lives someone they believes in fighting for.sometimes during the show, I would think why don;t they just give up and be a normal person, such funny people but as I watched on, I realized it is the bond that ties each and everyone of them so beautifully together that keeps them in the role they are playing.
this is really really a great show, i haven't even mention the twist and character relations. but it would be too taxing.
i am free.. so free.hahhaa
whoohoo!!! i have finally finish my yucky common test!!! wahahaha.. i really admire myself for bing able to survive these 4 days. this four days has being a total nightmare, i am so tramatised!!! hahaha this is even worse than the 4 days 3 nights church camp!! at least at the church camp i had more fun!! yeh!! now i am free from the torture!!! i am still happy despite the fact that i am soo going to flunk ALL my test, but i shall leave it to other days to ponder. for these 4 days of holiday i am going to slack slack and SLACK at home.
what am i going to do :
1. Watch internal affairs!!! EDISON. haha
2. sleep ( my beauty sleep)
3. master fruit basket starting song =)
4.drag benja and that others to go out
5.i have no ideas already
well shall blog about what happens a few days back.
i went back to my old secondary school on tuesday.well, it did change quite alot. it is now a tribute to the flag, red and white all over. the colour combination seems to get worse as the years goes by.. sad case. in case you are wondering why did i go back for, i went back for the prize presentation ceremony, the five distinction award. it is so embaressing, i mean people from other schools get like 7 or 8 distinction they don't even get a prize. anyway, i went back because i thought the prize was a popular voucher, however it turned out to be a plague instead. i truely felt cheated
well, at least we got free food so it wasn't so bad. manage to dig some juicy gossip back haha!!!and talk to fy and sr. missed them soo much. i wish that i could go back to the secondary schools. i even missed my teacher. i guessed you never apperciate things till they all gone. that a sad thing about human.
well i shall go back to watching the internal affairs!! haha
when i get my hands on you
okay you viruses when i get my hands on you, you are soo soo dead. you think it is fun by spaming others and spreading viruses around. huh huh. although i do not like to admit that i am relient on the computer but the fast moving pace of the increase in technology does not allow me to forsake my computer. and you!! virus senders have to sent your precious time sitting in front of the computer creating virus and disrupting peoples lives!!!
you know how much time i spent typing that damn report???!! and one virus from whatever creature you are and poof!! there goes my report. how nice of you to perform such nice magic!! THANKS ALOT and thank alot i say. spend your time on something more meaningful!!
and a gentle remainder to myself DO A WRITTEN COPY!! BEFORE I TYPE IN.
one down
Just finish my general paper. I can't believe I have a writer block during the exam itself. Shit shit shit.; I am going to fail my test. I know is I can see my gp teach face and him saying ' you fail. How could you fail such an easy paper!!! You are retain!!'
I am going to have a nightmare tonight I just know it!! I am going to FAIL and big fat
FAIL on my paper. I am sooo dead.I do not know why all of a sudden I hate the colour red so much.
first day of school
today shall be my first day of school. yeah how wonderful -_-. just give me one more month of holidays i would be a very happy person. this is the only long rest i got in um..since last june? that almost a year since i had a decent rest and this decent rest only consist of like less then 2 weeks. damn this is pathetic.
well.. this shall also be the first common test. i am soo soo nervous. i really pray that i would past, just let me pass this one.
maybe it is time i start putting some pic up in my blog t make it more interesting. yeah maybe i should but first studies come first.
tata
sometimes i just do not know what to doas the sun sets and risesmoon shines and dimuntil i have lost count ofeach and everyday i waslost in the ponders of you.
Miss it!!
Today turned out to be quite a sad day. I woke up early in the morning quite concerned on whether my friend wants to hop down to novena to attend the p&w, but it turns out that she has not wake up yet and thus I missed the p&W.
well... I would really like to hear the songs, I think the songs are great and most importantly I can get to see ahem.. Yup. But I don't think that is the right kind of mindset to go with so I was quite glad I did not go after all. One day I would be able to go there with my mind pure and devoted. Till that day comes..
want to know what I have being doing all morning? I have being playing that initial d drift king!!! Yeah that the best game I ever played in years haha.. But I keep losing at the same part. Fret not after my exams I am going to conquer you !!! Just you wait. The title of the drift king is mine and mine alone!!!
going back to the corner and sulk at my books again.
Who I am bored
Okay, here a problem, I am halfway through my revision but I am not going to continue studying, because I am sick and tired of staring at my notes and my mind is a total blank. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE!! The smallville song is now playing in my head ' somebody SAVE me dun care how you do it.. Just save.. save come' on..' do not know that rest. Somebody SAVE me!!! From this evil place of books and notes and concepts that needs to be memorized.
how I wish I can curl up in my bed, suggle in my blankkie with a nice story or comic book to read on a cooling day ( preferably 25 degree) or vcds playing on my laptop and laying in my bed to watch it. This would be heaven. WITHOUT ANY THOUGHTS OF FLUNKING MY EXAMS AND GETTING RETAIN PROBLEMS CIRCULATING IN MY MIND!!!
I would just have to bare for another like um.. 1 and the half year? I hope I will may it through will a sane and healthy mind. What a wonderful life I am having -_- .....
I want to be a racer
Wow!! I think I am very fickled minded. Now I want to be a profressional racer. whooo imagine the feeling, the thrill. I would just love the feeling, haha but if I tell my mom she would freak out and forbit me to get a driver lisencse. Haha!!
just watched initial D today!!! edison rocks man!!! i am offically his fan from now on!!! yeah!!! soo handsome and cool. i sound like some out of their mind fan girl haha..
i am sooo going to get the vcd and maybe catch the movie another time if my pocket allows. hee.
I seriously detest some people
I am soo soo soo fed up with my friend. You hear that M***** F**!!! You are such a stuck up and yucky person I wish I don't even know you in the first place.
to think I have tolerate you for that last 4years and 6 months. See how much time have I wasted. This flirt and self centered person just like to make life miserable for me. First he goes and talk to his guy friends all about me and then encourage his guy friend to go after me more like stalking in my opinion and then ask me the tell that guy I dun like him. That was last year so it is a thing of the past.
this year, he CONTINUES talking to his guy friends about me and the shopping trips that we go on. Him forcing me to wear all those stinking fluffy skirt I absolutely detest and hate to the core, then he goes around telling people I don;t look good in those skirts. Precisely I dun look good in those skirts that why dun wear them you airhead!!
then he just freak out when I get better results then him. HA. Feel my wrath. So what if you won me for 4 years. I still won you in the end, haha. I never wanted to compete with you in the first place =P. And you didn't even thank me for helping you edit that spelling and grammar error filled piece of essay that got you into mass comm. You ungrateful brat.
then now during the most crucial period of my life, a period so near the common test I am so stress up over, you promise to go out with so many people dragging me into it!!! And then back out at the last minute leaving me with the mess.
let me tell you!! If I could turn back the time and change one thing in my life, I would not change my decision to not go jc and go poly, the one thing I want to change sooo badly is to erase the presence of the yuck brat in my life!!!! You see this??!!!!
I WISH THAT I HAD NEVER KNOWN YOU!!!big and clear you pig. Clear up the mess that you have created yourself and dun expect me to do it. You can forget about it. From now on you are on your own!!!!
chase your own girlfriend ( like anyone would want you) settle your own problems and dun you EVER dare to ruin my peaceful life by spreading rumor about me.
continue living life like you do now and see how many ' true' friends would continue to stick with you.
haha and by then i would stand by and laugh.
I know I am acting like a mean a** but I give a hoot. You deserve it!!!
Super duper mom
When I grow up ( I am only 17 not that grown up yet) I want to work and get a stable job. Then I would want ot get a great boyfriend and get married. Give birth to two beautiful and wonderful kids. Yup that my dream for now.
I love my mother SOoO much. She is the bestest ( much much better then best). okay she does nags to me about my studies which sucks like I don't know what and nags at me when I go out and havoc until late in the night BUT she still cares for me at the end of the day. Even though she comes home from work very late every night she would always finish all the housework and etc. Plus listens to me rambling on and on about what happen to me that day. Ha I wonder how she stand it. My sister can't stand it. And yesterday =D my mom saw me getting very depress or maybe frustrated is a better word and she ask whether I want to have agar!!! Yeah!! My favorite favorite snack and she cook it for me at 11 pm. Isn't she the best mom on earth? And this morning she has to go to work.
I just love my mom!!!!!! And I want to be just like her. My father is great too. Ha. I LOVE my family so much. I wonder how can I survive without them.
home is a place that is always there. No matter what mistake you make, how bad a person you are, it is always there for you to go back to. All a person needs to do to have a home to go back to is to acknowledge the importance of a home and hold it close to your heart.
tiring days.. paanick attack
whoo.. these few day has really being a tramatizing and i do not know how to describe days. i only know that i feel sooooo exhausted, drain.
i had spent yesterday having math consultation with my ever so yucky math teach. it was a one- on-one consultation.. wow wonder how did i survive it.. but i must realy thank him for taking time off to specially come back to school to teach me. thank you teach. but i will not promise that i would not fail my next math common test... i am so sorry cause i never ever had that talent for math.. speaking of which when did i have the talent for studying?
i study for the sake of studying.. that what most student do, don't they?
if you really want to know what talent i have i shall proudly say to you sleeping!!! ask me to sleep at anytime of the day it is possible. well maybe other then that thinking of funny things and analsying meanings behind movies and books.. lit stuffs. but sadly i did not take up lit and instead i took a dumb and funny subject called geography!! not that i do not like it.. but i do not understand.. not even at tinny winny bit. it is alien to me!!! well i am going to flunk that as well.
i wish my general paper teach would ask meto write an essay name the biggest mistake of my life, i would have tonnes of things to write about. first i would say choosing jc den i would continue saying about the subjects. blah blah blah and the list would go on forever.. YEAH. and it would break the longest list of regrets. world record.. haha and i will earn big bucks.
stalking off to eat now and be a slacker and rot for the rest of my life..
forgive me. i am undergoing a state of depression..hahaha
i am no smartass
Ha... Shoot me.I am not studying AGAIN!! I did something stupid yesterday night. Something ABSOLUTELY
STUPID. And for a short short moment I thought I was a smartass -_-. How much worst can life be.Want to know what I did? well.. all i did was message him a stupid message tht my friend forwarded to me AND he message back " u r?'' just two letter and a sign how sad can that get.
LOVE THIS SONG!!!
kelly clarkson
BREAKAWAY
Grew up in a small town,
And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stared out my window;
Dreaming of what I could be,
And if I'd end up happy,
I would pray...
Trying hard to reach out,
But when I'd try to speak out,
Felt like no one could hear me;
Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here,
So I'd pray(I would pray)
I could breakaway...
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky...
I'll make a wish,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love,
I'll take a risk
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...
Wanna feel the warm breeze,
Sleep under a palm tree,
Feel the rush of the ocean...
Get onboard a fast train,
Travel on a jet plane, far away...
And breakaway...
[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly,
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky...
I'll make a wish,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget all the ones that I love,
I gotta take a risk,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...
Buildings with a hundred floors,
Swinging 'round revolving doors,
maybe I don't know where they'll take me... but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on,
Fly away...
Breakaway...
I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly,
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye...
gotta take a risk
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...
Out of the darkness and into the sun,
But I won't forget of the place I come from,
gotta take a risk,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...
Breakaway...
Breakaway........
argh.. i think i am dumb
I feel like a dumb ass these few days!!! Keep thinking about things that are not relevant to my studies at all!! I am suppose to mug and mug and mug but obviously that is the last thing on my mind now, to be precise it was NEVER on my mind.
Well, what am i thinking of these few days... obviously what most girls would think, her crush.. haha. I think I am going boy-crazy. But hey at least I think about BOYS now. I do not do that in the past. In case you are thinking that i think about him 24 hours for the last few days. nope i did not. I did alot of redunden things like reading story books, watching vcds and BLOGGING!!! haha.. Actually to think of it, I only spent like 1 hour before I sleep thinking of HIM!! not bad not bad.. SHIT i am crapping..
If you bother the hear more of my crapping hee.. i would now elaborate more of my crush = D
HE is
1. good-looking (to me, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder!!!)
2. good is sport
3. cute in the way he does things
4. trys to be gentle in handling things but mm....
5. enthu
haha and many more MOST IMPORTANTLY!!! he is caring. YEAH!!
I think he would freak out.. if he sees this.. haha
wow!!!
after reading my past post i realised that i am really quite a lame person.
just got a news from my friend. she manage to get the number of the guy she has a crush on and is now actively messaging him -_-. maybe i should do that to my crush, after all he gave me his number.. should i? nah maybe not.. would not know what to talk about and it is too troublesome..yup yup should fovus on my studies..that all.. tata
ava camp
back from a camp and off to the next one again..
wat a sad life i lead
but the ava does not need us to stay overnight...
but quite lame lah.. a camp but not staying overnight..
but i hate this camp!!!
they peeps are lame. arrogant, and suck up a**hole!!
sorry for the foul langauge but i am very pissed off right now..
i feel like i am juz wasting my time there..
why do i even bother..
soo i am glad i do not need to stay overnight..
that about all for now..
yo!! back again
haha this is my second post today!!
but i would like to say something lame..
i like someone
but i won't tell
haha
haizz.. i am being lame.. yeah!!!
i am crazy.
but this someone will not ever end up with moi..
so nevermind.. just want to get it off my chest..
sorry for the lame post..
haha
will update again very very soon..
like who is lookin..
haha
slackin
i am suppose to be studying..
lalala
but i am not
hahaha
i am not going to be doing it the next few days..
heehee hee
shit.. i am so lame.. and died
how to pass..
i wish luck would be with me...
me and just me
mm.. i wonder how a person can pretend to be a person they are not
isn't it tiring..
faking the tone.. acting differently..
is that the only way you would get accepted?
why would you want to do that..
i love myself..
the way that i live..
there might be a few regrets here and there..
but life goes on..
i might change one day..
but i hope i would be the kind of person that would stand in front of the mirror and proudly say.. " yup! that the favourite me"
i would to live life each day..
with the people i cherish so dearly and new people that i would soon cherish..
i would be the true me
and hope they would accept the true me..
because i know these people who accepts would walk with me through life
as usual
life is as usual...
waking up, brush teeths, eat, off to school
such daily routine
somtimes i feel so empty
yet sometimes i feel satisfied..
how queer...
